Musings....

Theatre is something that is so vital to me, yet I try so hard to pretend that I can take it or leave it.  However, when an opportunity/experience like "A Little Night Music" enters my life, well, I get all..."oh yeah." 

I had a wonderful time doing the show.  Sometimes it was hard on my family.  I cannot ever express to them how much I know they give up for me.  Selfish, I am.  A less selfish man would probably stop.  Like right now.  Likewise, a more selfish man would probably not even acknowledge the amount of time it does take.  For now, I am still struggling to find that balance.  Oft times, I get wrapped up in my own stuff.  Randy, Randy, Randy.  You know the way it is with me.

Other times, I get out of my way, and realize that I do this not only selfishly, but unselfishly.  Unselfishly sounds silly when there is so much "glory" involved with this.  But, I need it in order to be a better husband, a better Daddy, and a better Randy.  Many times I get that wrong.  Eventually, I hope, those that care about me realize why I'm there.  Sometimes, that fails. Striking the balance is something that I struggle with, and for that, I apologize.  Yikes, this is getting maudlin. 

I had a wonderful time doing the show, meeting new people, strutting, being "on."  Hard as it may seem to believe, I really liked the people I was playing with.  Overly talented, overly nice, overly patient, and overly qualified; the cast was a delight.  Plenty of kudos to go around.  Everyone was just great. 

Years have taken their toll on me.  One show after another has blended into each other.  Unfortunately, I've become jaded.  Like so many others, it loses its magic at times.  I need to say a big thank you to the people I worked with for helping me remember why I love it so.  Kidding aside, you were a wonderful group of people.  Every one of you. 

I won't soon forget it.

Thank you.